Illicit Affairs

Make sure nobody sees you leave

Hood over your head, keep your eyes down

Tell your friends you're out for a run

You’ll be flushed when you return

Take the road less traveled by

Tell yourself you can always stop

What started in beautiful rooms

Ends with meetings in parking lots

And that's the thing about illicit affairs

And clandestine meetings and longing stares

It's born from just one single glance

But it dies and it dies and it dies

A million little times

Leave the perfume on the shelf

That you picked out just for him

So you leave no trace behind

Like you don’t even exist

Take the words for what they are

A dwindling, mercurial high

A drug that only worked

The first few hundred times

And that's the thing about illicit affairs

And clandestine meetings and stolen stares

They show their truth one single time

But they lie and they lie and they lie

A million little times

And you wanna scream

Don't call me kid, don't call me baby

Look at this godforsaken

Mess that you made me

You showed me colors you know

I can't see with anyone else

Don't call me kid, don't call me baby

Look at this idiotic fool that you made me

You taught me a secret language

I can't speak with anyone else

And you know damn well

For you, I would ruin myself

A million little times